Monday, 15 April 2013

I'm trying to have a high raw foods diet at the moment, and thought it would be a good idea to keep track of it here so i can look back and remember what worked and what didn't/what was too expensive/tasted good etc...

http://leijaturunen.com/764/raw-food-for-beginners-leijas-tips-advice/ Leija gives a really helpful explanation to the benefits of eating raw and loads of tips. I feel like the main reason i'm doing it is to just feel good - to feel like i'm working with my body and making it happy.

I've been trying to maintain this diet for about 1 1/2 weeks and it's been lovely and easy so far. I'm approaching it as recommended by clued up women; raw up until late afternoon/evening, and then whatever i fancy as long as it makes me happy and it includes some carbs. When i feel i can afford it, i buy salmon on offer from Sainsburys and have a hunk every evening with rice/noodles/potatoes etc. BUT i've heard that once you've had your carby cooked meal, it's not a good idea to eat fruit/veg again afterwards. apparently the main meal will take longer to digest than the raw food,  meaning if you ate fruit etc afterwards it would all sit in the stomach for too long and get all fermented and gross. you don't want any hold ups in it being processed or it's just not great for you.

The only kinks i need to work out so far are:

- keeping costs down. i've already started by putting the smoothies on hold until i figure out the cheapest way to make them
- continuing to eat raw when i'm not at home. i went to Bath with friends this weekend and although they're very healthy girls themselves, i found it hard to work my way around getting lunch when we were eating out. i don't feel like this is a problem for just one weekend, as we did have very fruity breakfasts, but if it was for, say, a week, i would want to have a plan of how to get around it.

The benefits i've felt so far are mostly mental:

- i feel really happy and proud of myself that i can fill my body with such colourful, healthy, natural living things. I'll still eat pizza and crisps in the evening if i feel like it, so i don't feel like i'm depriving myself of things i like, but on the whole i feel less inclined to buy really unhealthy shit because my mentality towards it has somewhat changed.
- my friends commented this weekend that my skin is very clear and glowy, which i hadn't noticed myself but to be honest i don't usually  notice things like that until someone else points it out. Now that they've said it i've realised that i have been feeling like i'd much rather go out in hardly any foundation. I feel like whether this is because my skin is more fresh or because i just feel good is irrelevant.
- I also think i've lost little bits of excess fat here and there. my tummy feels more flat and surprisingly my thighs seem a bit slimmer which is something i went to ridiculous, mentally unstable and unsustainable lengths to achieve when i was younger. I don't feel like being 'skinny' is universally good or attractive anymore, and i don't aim towards it. During first year i actually did i 180 and was really into firm chunky legs and big bums. Anyway - I'm really enjoying how it feels to be in my body, because i feel like the little bit of fat i have lost didn't need to be there. Personally, for me, it was definitely a result of not eating as well as i can do.

The only thing that i don't enjoy in terms of my body on the outside, is that it seems like my ass has gotten smaller. I've come to the sad conclusion that when i loose fat, it seems to go from my badonk (that's just personally where i'd like it to sit on me). But this definitely isn't a big issue, and might just encourage me to get back on the Davina workout DVD, straight to the bum section.

Here's what i've eaten today, as an example of my lunches at the moment:

lettuce, 1 pear chopped, 1 apple chopped, sultanas, walnuts,
strong cheddar grated and thinly sliced,
big sprinkles of shelled hemp.
This huuuuuge salad is delish and filling. It's great that i can work shelled hemp into it easily, as the benefits are brilliant. Shelled hemp is really high in protein, contains omega 3, 6 and 9 which are important fatty acids that maintain a healthy heart and immune system, magnesium which is beneficial for bones, teeth, metabolism etc, amino acids which are the central building blocks of protein, fibre, and iron which is very important for me. The makeup of shelled hemp supposedly mirrors our 'natural' diet, so i'm gunna assume my body likes it.


Feeling lovely with fresh air & incense in my room full of plants. 

Thursday, 14 March 2013

Saturday, 9 March 2013

this reminds me that i don't HAVE to be constantly reiterating the feminist basics. i feel like if i don't, that person will carry on being misinformed, but this has reminded me that sometimes it's okay to not feel like i need to explain myself. i can just BE, proudly. sometimes that can be 'enough'. x

Evidence that your heart IS more than just a mechanical pump - that it is like a second brain, only stronger in its magnetic and electrical strength, and its electromagnetic strength is felt around our whole body and by those physically close to us!

"... In other words, one's emotional energy registered in the brainwaves of another. One person's heart signal can effect another's brainwaves, and heart-brain synchronization can occur between two people when they interact. ... The magnetic field produced by the heart is more than 5000 times greater in strength than the field generated by the brain."


http://www.healingheartpower.com/power-heart.html

"Getting stuck in triggered behavior patterns: Because one person's heartwaves register in another person's brainwaves, when one person gets emotionally triggered or stuck, the impact of their emotional energy may be strong enough to immobilize the other person." - Resonates BIG time with feelings of being trapped/cornered/needing to repel, sparked by being around 2 males in particular. I feel like I could feel their point of view - the feelings and thoughts they had of me and the situation we were in - to the extent that I could feel it somewhere grounded and solid in my body. It didn't sit comfortably at all within my body, and I felt like I couldn't be close to them in any future way. 


Friday, 8 March 2013

“Ideally, what should be said to every child, repeatedly, throughout his or her school life is something like this: 'You are in the process of being indoctrinated. We have not yet evolved a system of education that is not a system of indoctrination. We are sorry, but it is the best we can do. What you are being taught here is an amalgam of current prejudice and the choices of this particular culture. The slightest look at history will show how impermanent these must be. You are being taught by people who have been able to accommodate themselves to a regime of thought laid down by their predecessors. It is a self-perpetuating system. Those of you who are more robust and individual than others will be encouraged to leave and find ways of educating yourself — educating your own judgements. Those that stay must remember, always, and all the time, that they are being moulded and patterned to fit into the narrow and particular needs of this particular society.” Doris Lessing, The Golden Notebook
happy international women's day!!! 


tribal heroins:
http://www.guardian.co.uk/global-development/gallery/2013/mar/07/international-womens-day-tribal-heroines-pictures?INTCMP=ILCNETTXT3487#/?picture=405110033&index=9

"GODDESS WOMBMEN ARE IMPERFECT! Why? Because PERFECT was created by masculine ideals! YOU GODDESS live by pleasure, emotion, feeling rather than thinking. YOU GODDESS live by experience and sensation rather than Guidelines and RIGHT/WRONG checks and balances.

YOU GODDESS crave to do everything backward because to you- "just being" spirals... rather than moving in a straight line is moving FORWARD.

Of course, everyone craves to balance their masculine and feminine poles. And there is peace in perfect linearity....

BUT WE HAVE TO LOVE OUR IMPERFECT SPIRALS. And see them as delicious experience.

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I love watching women expand into their various archetypes.

ALL WOMEN ARE: Mother, Virgin, SLUT, warrior, child, Depressive, Angry, SEXUAL, Joyous, Nurturing, Stoic, Masculine, Feminine, vulgar, proper, destructive, chaotic, organized... EXPANSIVE.

Boxes called "social acceptability" are making women fearful to spread their wings!

Well, CALL ME and I'll remind you to just be your ever changing self.

KALI ROAR! We are here to experience. So go experience!
GOOD BAD. RIGHT WRONG.

Let's cut the shit (the world's illusion) so we may ALL LOVE MORE!

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You, my SIRENS, are my life force. Your connection to sexuality, creativity, and nurturance gives me my Isis wings. You womben, who honor the moon cycle as it waxes and wanes. Your mystic, psychic capacities, fiery free spirits, emotional honesty, and connection to your bodies makes me potent. Powerful. Alive. To you, my goddesses, you are the snake that enters my yoni and touches my heart. You raise my kundalini so I may open to the heavens while rooting in the earth. Beauties- Let’s be an INSPIRATION by revealing our authentic selves. May we live in vibrance- un-bashfully basking in our presence. YES! To radiating pleasure. Bliss. "
you can't make homes out of human beings

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gUvOViIXPAk&feature=player_embedded#!

Monday, 18 February 2013

Saturday, 16 February 2013

nomnom salmon, beansprouts, rice & black bean sauce ommnom

Friday, 15 February 2013

 
Forgotten spotify playlists.. 
Tomorrow's To-Do's
Nice walky in the parky
Make a big cake for girls 
Be a super woman and get tough work stuff done
Snuggle
Raise another $50 for birthday campaign
"Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself. And no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dream."

Feeling all inspired and forward - looking back almost always proves to be such a good push forward, as I feel how far I've come and how much more confident I feel and the future seems more exciting than daunting, because I know in a few years i'll be using this day as a reference point for how far I have again come!