it's a funny feeling knowing that being outside will be really rewarding to your mental health and happiness, but there's something still tying you to the sofa. the same goes for doing yoga, exercising, and making effort to see people that make me happy.

i feel like at the moment it's even more important than normal to do those healthy things that keep me grounded and spiritual at the same time. i need to remember to stay inspired. going to make myself go help my mum with a gardening job tomorrow morning

"This is walking through the valley of the shadow of death. Not the valley of death, the valley of the shadows of death."

"Feel fear but say yes anyway. We want so much, we want everything, but we offer so little of ourselves. No. You must be bold, you must be strong. Your greatest strength is to say 'yes' to the true. Come what may."

"This voice of 'oh I can't, I can't do this', you really need to examine whose voice it is, because you, without really checking, are just accepting 'oh this is me'. Your true voice is not this. This is our cultured selves."

breakfast of champs. apple, banana, raisins, peach, kiwi, passion fruit yog, flaxseed and goji berry mix

The Light Show - left it stupidly late, and was in such a panic when i realised i had 2 days left to see the show and both days were sold out. i'd like to think that Anya offering me her members card was some good karma coming back around, but really it's just down to her being such a nice n helpful girl! i got in for free without queuing.

for me the show was definitely on a par with the Mariko Mori 'Rebirth' exhibition i went to see a little while ago, which is saying a lot. i sat in the first room, staring at the first piece, listening to Gold Panda for maybe half an hour. i loved watching the little kids come in the entrance and see the big glittering structure right away. one little girl ran around it in circles until her mum had to drag her away.

the coloured rooms totally didn't disappoint. someone pointed out to me that they use red lights in strip clubs because red is the most flattering tone for human skin. i tested it out, and you actually can't even see the freckle on my hand. blue was my fave

such a perfect experience after a shitty low feeling night. light is magic

Beyonce

S: heheheh o m god germa y u cryen

G: fok off sofi

today i ate fruit and cake, sewed pom poms on my bag and started teaching myself to crochet. 

might be the sun or just a good day, but i feel really chilled after reading my cards last night and feeling like i have some back up (whether this is from myself or external sources i feel is almost irrelevant) and clarity. i feel like it's not a coincidence that i took an online chakra test that showed my throat chakra is extremely open, and then later my cards showed that recently my throat charka has been very open and i have been speaking my truth, and that i should carry on doing this. i feel like this is what i wanted and needed to hear, along with other very accurate and reassuring readings.

naice outfit

other than the generalisation that all homophobia is caused by this, this is awesome and i'm so glad someone else has put into words concepts and feelings that i didn't know how to

first dress like this n heels i can remember buying since i was a teenager. it feels guilt ridden but fresh

Ann's amazing crocheted scarf on Great British Sewing Bee

deffo a project for summer when i have time to understand this youtube vid - so complicated that it will be ready in time for next winter

A friend got me some Lush goodie goodie presents with her 50% staff discount - i want to buy EVERYTHING from there now.

colour supplement, dark yellow

so nice - use a tiny bit straight onto your skin as thicker concealer, or mix with face moisturiser to get your perfect colour and thickness. there are so few ingredients, the first being fresh rose petal infusion. feels so light on fresh on ma faace, lasts ages, and only around £8 without discount

massage bars, wiccy magic and therapy

amazing massage bars that are made of delicious oils n stuff that melt at skin temperature. so, have a rub over someones back/arm/whatever to get some oil going and thats that. so much easier than oil from a bottle! and the wiccy magic one smells like sexy chocolate

bath bomb, the comforter

it's pink, has sparkles in it and smells so strongly like blackberries. perfect. bath bubbles and water turn pink so you can soak like a princess unicorn fairy

fun, orange and mandarin

feels like playdough, smells so strongly of orange starburst sweets, and is generally FUN. works as shampoo, conditioner, clothes soap, bubble bath etc. comes in biodegradable wrapping (that you've gotta store it in otherwise it will smoosh all over your shower when it gets wet. OR Lush sell special Fun tins). you only need the tiiiniest bit in your hand to work up into a lovely silky creamy lather. so good for shaving legs and my sister reckons the smell of the pink flavour lasts on your skin for days

it's all genuinely free of animal testing, and most products are vegan. given Imperial College's recent scandal about their disgusting breach of guidelines when testing on animals, i feel like i'm not naive enough to trust that animal testers will even stick to the barely humane codes of conduct they are given. the same goes for 'free range' meat etc. so if you don't trust it, don't go near it. i'm going to start the transition to make all of my products LUSH. the staff know everything there is to know, and it all smells delicious. no downside

i ♡ LUSH - it's inspired me to consider what i put on my body as well as in it